![]() ![]() She has convinced Rachel that she should want to “be perfect. “ saw future pain, frightened that I would grow up to be like her parents, whose obesity had caused her shame, or her fat cousin Wendy, who was unhappy,” explains Rachel. Which is much like her relationship with her mother, a fatphobic, narcissistic woman who has imposed this illness and toxic level of self-scrutiny on her daughter, even from across the country, in Short Hills, New Jersey. The precise, tedious ritual of Rachel’s so-called diet-her disordered eating, to be clear-gives her a sense of feeling anchored, even as it eviscerates her. She falls asleep with a Nicorette parked in her cheek. ![]() 2) a 160-calorie salad at Subway, and a 14-oz., 180-calorie serving of fat-free, low-carb frozen yogurt at Yo!Good (lunch) and, if she’s worked out for three hours at the gym, a frozen light-spaghetti dinner mixed with a tablespoon of sriracha, one sweet potato mixed with Splenda, one 100-calorie diet muffin top with four tablespoons of Cool Whip Lite-all eaten while standing up-and bonus: a pint of 150-calorie diet-chocolate ice cream mixed with a half-cup of Special K Red Berries cereal. 1, for example, is Nicotine gum, followed three to four hours later by a serving of zero-percent-fat yogurt sweetened with packets of Splenda (a.k.a., breakfast No. ![]() She subsists, barely, on a “Spartan regimen” comprising ersatz foodstuffs. ![]() Rachel, the protagonist of Melissa Broder’s new novel, “ Milk Fed,” is a funny, smart 24-year-old secular Jewish up-and-coming comedian working as a talent-management assistant in L.A. ![]()
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